Undeniable #Poetry

A quick back story on this poem:

I wrote this poem about 10 years ago. It is pertaining to my Ex-Fiance at the time and our relationship/my doubts. I haven’t changed or re-written anything from this poem since then. Please let me know what you think, especially compared to my poetry now. If you have any questions please don’t hesitate to ask.

Is this love for you real?

Are we going with what we really feel?

Or trying to hold on to something, anything we can.

Do we really feel it?

Or do we only need it.

Do we need the idea of love and someone loving us to make things easier?

Is it easier to say that you have someone waiting for you?

Me and you. You and me. Us.

Just an idea that we pushed around in our heads.

Did we make believe it was real?

To show others what we “have” and what they want.

But do they want falsehood?

Are we being true to ourselves, each other and the feelings within?

Did we just make up what we both longed for just to have it so readily?

Do you try to convince yourself this is real?

Am I doing that every day?

By talking about you, how I feel and what you mean to me.

Do I say these things over and over again to convince myself that they’re true.

Is it if you say it enough you’ll eventually believe it? Is that what love is?

Is that what this is?

A rebound for you.

A need for me.

A want from you.

I lust of feelings for me.

Do I even know what I’m meaning?

These words I write so swiftly.

Pouring from my mind onto this page not knowing what I’m looking for maybe it’s what’s within me.

Maybe it’s doubt casting its ugly head.

Maybe it’s wanting it to fail due to being afraid of the commitment.

Do I really make you happy?

Or do you just tell yourself that so it’s easier to make it through the day.

So, you can forget about her and the other guy she’s with.

Do you think of her in the ways you say you think of me?

Could you really?

Do I measure up to her and what she was too you or am I just the settle you told yourself you’d never do?

Am I everything to you?

Are you everything to me?

Do “we” really exist in all this?

Is this our hearts and our brains being young, dumb, looking for that feeling so hard that we just happened to find it in each other?

Hoping, longing that it’s real so we manifested it in each other.

Does your heart cry for me?

Long for me?

Or are you just playing the game?

Somewhere inside you are hoping it will become real.

I will become her.

You will become him.

We will become them, we, us.

Does the drive for the idea of love make love so?

Does your brain and your heart make it so if you force it too?

Does our subconscious hold the truth, the real truth?

If so will we ever reach it or will we lock it away deep inside and hope it never rears its ugly face?

Did we talk and talk and talk to hope we’d find something in one another to spark anything inside us?

The fire we always heard about and wanted so badly.

The fire and passion one could only see in the movies.

Are we searching for that happy ending in each other because we know it really doesn’t exist?

Have we fooled everyone?

Have we fooled ourselves?

Is it okay to be your own worst enemy?

To destroy yourself and everything you built up that you thought was true, wanted to be true, longed for it to be true.

Can you really beat yourself at your own game?

It is the game of the heart that will cause your downfall in the end.

Are you ready for it?

Can you hold on?

Can you make everything you say real?

Can you feel it with all your being?

Or will you just fall endless?

The game of the heart and soul will destroy you in the end.

There could be happy endings but maybe if you only pretend.

To pretend you become the act, the show everyone tunes in for.

How long can you keep up this charade?

If you’re only longing for more.

Is it me that can give it to you?

Can you give it to me?

Are you my everything or my nothing?

Are you like these words that spew out of my thoughts are you just what I made you to be?

The perfect man.

The perfect girl.

Should I set you free?

Or hold on to this reality?

Pull your strings as you pull mine.

Who’s in charge, who will cross the line?

Hold you tight?

Live a lie?

Die alone?

Trust myself?

Trust your words?

Believe my feelings?

Cast them aside?

Feel your feelings or only try?

 Believe in myself like I believe in you.

I am I just a lie?

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Journey in Blogging: One Month

Hello lovely fellow bloggers!

I had just some quick news to share with everyone. It’s already been 1 month since I started posting to my WordPress blog. It wasn’t very long ago that I was too nervous, bashful and not confident in my writing to share my writings outside of a handful of people. Now, I’m sharing a piece of my heart and soul with the world every day! It’s truly uplifting and invigorating. I am so thankful for all the support I am being shown on this site from my fellow bloggers. Your likes, follows and comments help to keep me motivated to write and share my posts every day. I couldn’t keep growing into the writer I wish to be without all of you. So, from the bottom of my heart THANK YOU. I look forward to interacting, growing, writing and posting more as these days turn into months. Wow time has flown!

Do you have any questions for me? If so please ask them in the comment section on this post. I will answer them back in the comment section and if I get a bunch of questions I will answer them in a blog post.

Catch you on the flipside,

Holly

P.S.

Want to interact outside of WordPress? I know I do! Follow me on Twitter and I’ll follow you back.

 

Muses: Music That Inspires

Hello my fellow lovely bloggers!

I have been racking my brain for hours on what to write. Nothing is coming to me today sadly, but not all is disappointing! I had an idea to share some songs with everyone that I enjoy, and hopefully you’ll find one or two you like as well. Let me know what you think by leaving a comment and if you want more of the tunes I rock to leave a like so I know. Without further ado, here are some awesome listens.
I adore K. Flay as an artist she has a lot of amazing songs but this one popped up on my Youtube feed today. Her raspy voice is soothing but still feminine, which adds to the soothing feeling of this song.  The original song is good as well, but there’s something about the beat and added music to this song that makes me fall in love. This is what I’m currently listening too on repeat.

Oh Missio, a band I just heard on the radio when I was driving one day. I like the light, airy beat to the music, definitely a head bobbing with the headphones on kind of song. The lyrics inspire me to just be myself and if you don’t like it, well the song title speaks for itself. 

So, this song really shocked me at how much I liked it. I was never a fan of the Jonas Brothers, honestly I couldn’t name any songs they have song. When this came up on my Spotify shuffle, I was instantly hooked to the opening beat, and I still am. The emotions in the song lyrics, the dance moves and just both the singers really got me into this song. Showing me how much Nick Jonas has grown as an artist.

If you know me picking a Panic! At The Disco song wouldn’t surprise you, as I tend to play their albums on repeat at least once a week. I picked this song because it has a special place in my writing. I’ve listened to this song on repeat while I’ve written poetry and short shorties. The beat is simple but mellowing helping keep me focused and the lyrics are very sweet. Plus, Brendon Urie’s singing voice is hands down one of my favorite things to listen too. 

Last, but not least, my girl Kesha. I’ve always had fun listening to her music, dancing, joking but never taking her lyrics seriously. When she released this song I was worried at what direction she would go. The opening had me on the edge of my seat because I knew this could go really great or really badly. I felt like I held my breath until this song was over and breathed a sigh of relief when I realized how good it really is. The lyrics just hooked me and I feel like it could fit anyone at least at some point in their lives. Also, the piano had me rocking out

These are just a few of the songs you can find me listening to on a regular biases. I have so many more songs that inspire me or have touched me on a deeper level. Also, a lot that are just for fun. I listen to all genres of music, there’s too many great artists in this world not too. I hope you enjoyed checking this small list out. If you did I will do more in the future. 

Unique Blogger Award: 2017

I am still new to the blogging world, so even to be considered for any award is exciting and inspiring. A big thank you goes out to Aparna_097 for thinking of me and nominating me for this award. Aparna’s poems are beautifully written, making the words come to life in your heart and mind. I will highly recommended checking out Aparna’s post and giving a follow.

The rules are as follows:

  • Share the link of the blogger who has shown love to you by nominating you.
  • Answer the questions.
  • In the spirit of sharing love and solidarity with our blogging family, nominate 8-13 people for the same award.
  • Ask them 3 questions.

 

My Answers:

  1. What was the best moment of your life?

Holly: Hmm. This is a hard question because life is made up of so many amazing moments that it’s hard to pick just one… The first moment that jumps in my mind is being asked to be a part of my best friend’s wedding. Being a part of the love and celebration was truly amazing.

  1. What inspire you the most, when you bounce back into the realm of sadness?

Holly: I actually write best when I’m in “the realm of sadness”, I feel like it helps me unlock all my other emotions and my brain works overtime trying to place my words correctly. I’m not always sad though! What normally pulls me out is the support of my friends and family.

  1. What compelled you to blog?

Holly: I’ve been writing for a long time and I was very limited on who I shared my writings with. After some encouragement from these people and a kick in the pants I made a blog. I wanted to share my writing with people, get their thoughts/feelings on it. I will only get better if I push myself to grow and my blog is how I can grow.

 

My Nominees are:

My Questions for the blogger’s nominated:

  • What are the goals you have set for your blog and how do you hope to achieve those goals?
  • What inspires you to write, especially when you have writer’s block?
  • Give a random fact about yourself! 😀

The Versatile Blogger Award

Hello lovely fellow bloggers! It’s been a great day, especially here in our blogging community. I received a comment from RunawayNunsandLeprechauns saying that she had nominated me for the “Versatile Blogger Award”. I am so excited because I am new to the world of blogging, so even being thought of is such a HUGE thing. Thank you so much to RunawayNunsandLeprechauns for nominating me and letting me know that she is inspired by my writings. Nothing puts a smile on my face more than knowing people are enjoying what I post. If you haven’t checked out her blog I would highly recommend doing so. Her blog is so positive and inspirational you will not regret following her!

THE RULES

  1. Thank the person who nominated you.
  2. Share 7 facts about yourself.
  3. Nominate 10 other bloggers of your choice.
  4. Link your nominees and let them know of your nomination.

 

7 Holly Factoids

  1. I love animals! I have 2 cats currently (Named Shocka and Elwyn).
  2. Spiders (of any size) are my kryptonite.
  3. I earned my 3rd degree black belt in Tae Kwon Do before the age of 21.
  4. I’ve been to China and climbed the Great Wall.
  5. I love Roleplaying Games (RPGS) especially ones from Japan. Which makes me a PlayStation girl over XBOX.
  6. I love interacting and getting to know people in the blog community. I believe supporting each other in our creativity is the best thing in the world.
  7. I haven’t shared my writings much, outside of a handful of people, before I started my blog.

... AND THE NOMINEES ARE…

  1. Brett Little
  2. johncoyote
  3. aletheakatherine
  4. ananyaexpress ,Instinctive writing
  5. halfarsedrunner
  6. thesarahdoughty
  7. layvi444
  8. Unfiltered Mama
  9. Blue Settia
  10. Abirami 

    This was really hard for me to only pick 10 blogs to nominate for this award! I picked your blog because of the interaction we have had and how your writings inspire me. Now it’s your turn, please go nominate 10 fellow blogger’s that have inspired you. 😀